Dear diary...
well so today I have decided to write in you and all though I have tried many times before I believe this one will be successful. Due to me being dyslexic writing is not my strong point, and even though I have great ideas I find it hard to put it down on paper so that’s why I have chose a blog.
So Diary (I really need to think of a name for you) I bet you are wondering why I am writing in you and well its more straight forward then actual I thought - it’s my own little withdraw, my own little safe zone, a book that wont judge.
so now I bet you are wondering the reason behind me starting to write and so here goes... ever since I was young I heard voices and not the sort that you here from your mate in the play ground or the sort you hear on the radio, no these voices where coming from inside me and no one else could hear them. At that age you don’t really realise that you are different or need to seek help for this problem as to you its jut normal, to you it happens a few times a week but to you its tortures. As well as these voices I had family problems and even though the abuse was not turned on me (well at least not at that age) I could still see and hear all what was going on between my dad and my step brother.
Now being older the problems have not stopped but just changed a little the voices are still there but with just a little bit of paranoia and anxiety and self esteem issues thrown in and now my brothers moved out so the tension is between my dad and my mum and me, but I have also gained a new problem I am a self harmer...
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